It's one of those days where I just want to climb back in bed, pull the covers over my head and say I'm done with this nonsense. It's Tuesday and I am having the blues. This will be my first post I will write that I won't be talking about happy things. Although this won't happen often with me because I try to live my life each and every day happy and content. I'm a tough girl. I have been through a lot and have come out strong each and every time. I know this time will be no different. I guess sometimes we all have those moments where we feel alone, sad, hopeless, angry and overwhelmed. So many emotions all at the same time. It's not fun. I don't like to be in this negative place. I'm just going through a lot and have a lot of issues that I need to work out. I need a lot of luck and some answers.
We all have problems and I think the best thing we can have are people to love and support us. I don't have much of that and that makes it difficult. Sometimes I feel like so many things are falling apart in my life. And as much as I try to focus on the good and what I have, the negative thoughts and emotions consume me.
I am so thankful for my children. They brighten my day and make me smile and pray every night that I have them in my life. But what good am I to them if I'm sad or stressed? I want to be the best Mom possible. I think being a Mom is the best thing I have ever done my whole life. I will not stop now. I want to be someone strong they can lean on and look up to. I guess sometimes we all get a little weak and fall apart a bit right? I would think that is normal. But it doesn't make it easier or help me not think from time to time I'm dissapointing them.
I pray each and every day for a change and I hope things will change for the better. I guess places like this help to write about what we are all feeling inside from time to time. Even if the post is happy or sad. I want to feel happy. I want to take every day and make the best of it. I want to appreciate and see what I have that is good. I want to love and I want to be loved. I want to feel peaceful and I want to trust. I want to know that this life I live has a purpose bigger then anything I could ever imagine. I want to do the right thing and I want to smile and laugh again. I want so many things.
I want to figure stuff out for once. I hope one day I can sit down and say, it's here. It's finally here for me. I can see it, feel it and I can believe it. I can believe in my life and myself again.
I am so sorry to hear you are blue... it does happen to us all at one time or another... just yesterday I was feeling low... but today is another day and I am back to myself again. Hang in there. Blessings!
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You sound like such a lovely person. Sounds as though your inner voice has been working a little overtime on you lately. It is not written anywhere that I know of that we have to be happy and bubbly all of the time. It's ok to have an occassional meltdown. We all have them and the next day we pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and get back in the race. Your children understand more than you think they do. As long as you love them and keep them safe, they ask for little else.
ReplyDeleteI am sixty years old and feel like I'm 40! The only thing about being 60 and not 40 is that I no longer judge myself so harshly. I have learned that if I am having a bad day then the next day will be a good one. I've also learned to allow myself to be just me, not a superwoman who has to please everyone else. It's takes growing older and gaining wisdom to know the things we used to worry about really weren't all that bad.
Just know that you have friends everywhere and people who will listen. Keep blogging about your thoughts, it's good therapy.
Take care my dear and know that tomorrow will be better.
God Bless You.
Hang in there - I hope you're feeling more yourself soon ...
ReplyDeleteAs for the rest, I try to live by the philosophy that if there is something I can do to make a situation better, then there is no point worrying about it, just get it done. And if there is nothing I can do about it, there is no sense in worrying about it either, because all I can do is leave it in God's hands. Easier said than done sometimes, but we try... we try ...
Remember those little darling babies of yours love you as you are and the rest of us too - your blog brings us all a lot of pleasure - I hope that joy comes back to you tenfold ...
best,
Steph
sending you happy wishes and positive thoughts...: )))))
ReplyDeleteHope you are feeling better today! Sometimes you can't do much to quickly usher away the difficult times, but usually there are at least some days in the midst of it where you feel a little sunnier - hope today was one of them at least.
ReplyDeleteThank you everyone. I guess the best way to feel better is to have lots of encouragement. I can only hope for the best right?
ReplyDeleteWant it, and it'll get better. It's okay to be blue now and then. I think sometimes it actually helps us stop and look at what we have and even if things arent' as we wish, you know there's someone who's got it worse. There really is, but I know, today's about you and how you're feeling.
ReplyDeletePray like you do and get a good nights rest. I'll pray for you tonight too. There's nothing so big God can't help you get over. Look at me, I'm dancing in tattered shoes, but I'm still dancing.
Marie
Better days and better feelings are ahead, sweetie! ♥
ReplyDeleteWe all feel down from time to time... maybe you would like my friend's blog... www.thisistheday-hope.blogspot.com May you find true hope there...
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